Whenever people reminisce about their pre-religious days, their mouths water over memories of McDonald’s chicken nuggets and gummy worms. I must admit there were times I was a little jealous that I never had such ‘haraam days’ ( Don’t judge me- I just really really want to taste some Lucky Charms darn it!). We ate halaal from the start and never got the chance to taste these ‘staple Canadian foods’.
Allhumdullillah I was born into a practicing Muslim family with relative basic knowledge about Islam. I was taught that Allah is with us at all times, He (SWT) can hear your thoughts and knows your intentions. From a very early age I would talk to Allah- think Bridgette Jones Diary- but the audience is Allah. It’s not that I was an extraordinary Muslim praying all the time- I was just in constant connection with God.
I think on average I would make duah over 100 times a day. Duah about random stuff like for the kids at school to stop picking on Amy for being fat, for Amy to lose weight, stuff I was sad about, for pouty lips, to get to sit at the back of the bus, for Mr.Chisolm to choose my art work as a display model..and the list goes on.
I’m no longer in touch with Allah like I used to be.
I miss Allah.
I pray, do the 5 pillars of Islam , try to avoid sin- but that constant connection is no longer there. There’s too much static of responsibilities and worry interfering with our connection. They say God is always there- it is us who wander off and go astray.
I feel like it’s a long distance relationship now. I’m not happy about that. I want to move closer to Him.
Ever feel like you’re so thirsty, yearning for something? You try all sorts of things to quench your thirst but nothing works. Then you realize it’s your soul or heart that’s calling out for help.
How do you soothe your soul?
When I heard about the Al-Kauthar course Heart Therapy, I became hopeful that perhaps I could reclaim that deep connection again. A friend of mine took this course 3 years ago and swears it changed her life. I know that drifting away from Allah essentially has to do with my heart- I became too preoccupied with the blessings He gave me to spend time with Him. So crazy when you think about it. That’s not right.
I’m really looking forward to this course coming up March 21-22 2015 in Toronto. I’ve been making duah to be close to Allah again..maybe this course is Allah answering my duah. Insha’Allah I will come back a better person.